Saturday, 24 October 2009

How the World Should Be

Eating outdoors on a warm summers evening..

Being barefoot all the time!!!

Blue skies and happy floaty people

yummy peaches!!

and finally....the self confidence that comes as a result of the strongly rooted knowledge that you were created by a deeply intentional God who doesn't make mistakes and thinks you are INCREDIBLE!

(all pictures via the wonderful fffound)

Wednesday, 21 October 2009

What do I want? An antidote to the horror of a personal statement

I want to be FREE!!!!!

I want to be filled with the joy of my Daddy saviour all the time despite circumstances.

I want to be in the countryside, somewhere with space to just breathe.

I want to have time to run into fields and spin really really fast simply to watch the butterflies rise and take wing.

I want to always celebrate the littlest of blessings - breathing in the autumn, wearing woolly tights and cord skirts like I’ve done every fall since I can remember. Discovering rope swings and trees to climb.

I want to work somewhere where I can help people who are in need. Somewhere that allows me to spend time caring for people, steadily changing lives in a unique and God breathed way.

I want to marry a man who I love and respect, someone wise and strong enough to take our future in his hands and move forward as my equal partner.

I desire to be a wife who knows what it means to be graceful. Blessedly forgetful of my husbands past faults and loyal always. I want to believe in him even when no one else does – especially then. I want to pray with him every day of our lives - there will always be three strands pulling us through. I want to make space for our romance no matter what – love notes left in unexpected places and baths taken together after a difficult day.

I want to be an amazing mother!!! Imaginative and creative I want to be the kind of parent who lies down next to my children and gazes up at the sky just for the sake of it. I want to have wild pillow fights and build dens, talking to our heavenly father not just at night but as we move through the precious days.

I want my family to be inclusive and expansive – always exceeding our income for the sake of others and characterised by our generosity and fierce LOVE for those God puts in our path. Regardless of financial viability we will open up our home to those who need a place to be.

I want to live filled with joy, taking hold of life and embracing it and others in the way Jesus taught us to do. I want to be peaceful and not to worry about the future but stride into it hand in hand with those I love and the promise of an eternally faithful father. I want to live life to its fullest possible extent and die well, praising the God who I will be with for eternity.

pictures by i.anton (, Kathryn Krueger ( and me!

Friday, 16 October 2009

tread softly...

Had I the heavens' embroidered cloths,
Enwrought with golden and silver light,
The blue and the dim and the dark cloths
Of night and light and the half-light,
I would spread the cloths under your feet:
But I, being poor, have only my dreams;
I have spread my dreams under your feet;
Tread softly because you tread on my dreams.
William Butler Yates

Sunday, 11 October 2009

The Great Escape

Ever feel like running away?

Much as I enjoy and revel in the company of other people sometimes I think It would all just be a little bit easier if it was just me and God...

You and me

You are the scariest thing in my life, terrify me more every day.

Exhilarating, exasperating.

I miss as much as I hit the mark,

Maybe more.

Yet it is at these times of absolute fear that I can feel you in me,

In my heart, which resides somewhere in the region of my mouth.

You expand my boundaries ten fold,

Willing or unwilling.

I need this fear to grow but it doesn’t change my favourite thing;

Sitting with you

Silent as you hold me in your love

Just you and me.

Wouldn’t it be nice if it could always be

Just you and me,

You and me,

You and me.'

August 2008

Gotta have you..

Things currently enchanting me...

Leaps of faith...

'Find rest, O my soul, in God alone;my hope comes from him.He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will not be shaken.' Psalm 62:6-7

Hope for the future

Somewhere warm and dry to store my feet :)

And the soothing tones of these wonderful people...

'Gray, quiet and tired and mean
Picking at a worried seam
Try to make you mad at me.. over the phone
Red eyes and fire and signs
I'm taken by a nursery rhyme
I wanna make a ray of sunshine and never leave home

No amount of coffee, no amount of crying
No amount of whiskey, no amount of wine
No no no no no, nothing else will do
I've gotta have you, I've gotta have you.

The road gets cold, there's no spring in the middle this year
I'm the new chicken plucking open hearts and ears
Oh, such a prima donna, sorry for myself
But green, it is also summer
And I won't be warm till I'm lying in your arms.

I see it all through a telescope: guitar, suitcase, and a warm coat
Lying in the back of the blue boat, humming a tune...

No amount of coffee, no amount of crying
No amount of whiskey, no amount of wine
No no no no no, nothing else will do
I've gotta have you, I've gotta have you.'

Thursday, 8 October 2009

Some Things Remain the Same...

looking at these old photographs I came to the realisation that very little has really changed for me between the ages of two and twenty one...

My disregard for animals when it comes to having a place to recline...

My drinking habits..

(Me aged 2 with my sippy cup)

(aged 21...with my sippy cup)

And notably my Love of navy wellies....

also its hard to escape the fact that I'm giggling like a manic (most probably at my own jokes) in the pictures of me aged two this clearly hasn't changed a jot :) in fact probably the only thing which has changed is my hair colour!!